Maya Beals | On 11, Nov 2019

Moving on is the hardest part of things,

Leaving behind what was once the most important thing to you is an everlasting pain with nothing but a constant reminder of what you’ve lost. 

Or so I thought. 

You see, many times in this lifetime we go through trials and tribulations that we will never understand. We go through unsolicited pain and heartache with a mindset of hurt. We never look at the bright side of things or how to turn lemons into lemonade. 

Open your mind to new things,

It hurts right now, as it should, but ask yourself will it hurt forever? In 5 months will it hurt? In 5 years will it hurt? Will it still have power over your life, over your mind, and over your heart? Will you continue to allow things of your past to harm you? 

No one knows the right answer,

We all think we know the right answer to that question, but no one truly does. It will hurt forever if you let it. Your pain will last a lifetime if you let it. Why can we never see what’s best for us is letting go even when we’re crying in the mirror for the sixth time this week and it’s on Tuesday? 

Who hurt you?

Often asked. I wish I had an answer. See, the person who initially hurt me is no longer here and the person that continues to hurt me is the same one I see in a mirror. I hurt myself thinking of the past rather than growing from it. How can I try to grow if I still haven’t let go? 

Why can’t I let go? 

I wish I knew. Only to find that I’m stuck to you like glue. I know there’s more to life than this time right here but it’s easier to stay stuck here with the memory of you. It’s sad, yes I know, but can you truly blame me? 

Move on. 

It’s time to move on and get out of this slump. It hangs over me and has me stunned. I can no longer harbor this pain in my heart, I’m too sweet and loving to let it damage me more. I’m moving on for the better and hoping it gets better for my sake. 

Growth. 

Here is your growth. A new beginning with nothing stopping you. A new beginning where there’s more to life than hurt and sadness. I’m deciding this is my true time to move forward in life and finally be happy. Despite all my tribulations, I will no longer let them hold me hostage. I deserve better and I will have better and be better. So here’s to my growth and prosperity. Out with the old and in with the new making every day more memorable than before and being my productive. I will get past this hurt and finally be happy. I will finally prosper and become something more. I will be happy. I have to be happy. For me and me only.